What is different now

is a sense of equanimity

to accept what is to be

unlike the previous nightmares that I had

and the palpitations that I felt as the day approached

what is left now is

a quiet sense of action,

a sense of knowing,

a sense of acceptance.

It is no longer a struggle to question or to ponder what if one fails

but a sense of focus to do the best that one can be.

This journey is not the end, but only the beginning.